And now I'm going to whinge - don't say you weren't warned.
I've finally given in and taken Pilf to Northrend but blimey I dislike it. Like, I really dislike it. I don't really like the zones, the armour is so ugly it actually makes me want to cry, I can't fly which irks me, I don't want to throw myself into the hell that is PuGs... And I'm suffering from the I've done this twice already thing. I know that one can argue that of pretty much all zones but at least in 'nilla you could (to a degree) choose your poison. When I levelled Shad (who was Pilf Mk 1) through Northrend I spent a lot of time in instances with a gang from my guild - we pretty much did a lot of the levelling this way. With Kythes I just flogged myself through the levelling and didn't instance at all. But each time it was new to me. Stepping into Naxx for the first time was A Big Deal. I'd never seen 'old' Naxx, nor had most of my guildies so when things like this happened:
We laughed - and yes, that does say "Heigan the Unclean down after 18 minutes and 52 seconds" - good going huh! Because these were the people that I had partied with before...
...In that way that you do when you spend far too much time on vent, know each other inside out and raids just happen easily. Where the only loot dramaz (that used to make our GM fume) were about people refusing to take the loot because it was more of an upgrade for someone else /sigh, I loved 10-mans... But then the guild went 'kaboom' in the way that guilds do, and my darling hunter-friend gave up WoW for RL and my darling shamalama-friend went alt mad and also got a woman and RL, and I went 25-man raiding and burnout and misery and woe ensued.
Up until now (today to be specific, 3 hours ago to be more specific) I was dead happy where I was. I love SAN - it's like a cuddly, fluffy blanket that wraps itself around you and gives you warm fuzzy hugs every time you log on. Ditto my guildies. I love Pilf, to the extent that I'm failing to play any other alt, which saddens me, but the thing I love most about Pilf is 'her'. The she's this entity, this being who (most of the time) is totally out of my control and that her life seems to 'happen' with minimal input from me (that sounds mad for which I apologise but I can think of no other way to describe it better). But this is such a double-edged sword. I'm horribly... invested in her. Over-invested, probably, and her story is taking over not just my gaming, but that of the Other Half too. Which is incredibly unfair, unworkable and untenable.
So what to do? I should go through and purge my characters that I'm actually not going to play *looks at the Death Knight* I guess, and try and create someone new. I know that if I leave Pilf for a while I'll come back to her and she'll be shiny and fresh again and I'll get that hoppity-skip feeling going again. But in order to do that I have to start again, from scratch and really give another character a fair chance. It's not the end of the world after all - I had already decided that I wasn't going to go instancing either in normals or on heroics on her, no need to gear up when I have no intention of raiding, which would mean getting to 80 and then going 'meh'. Maybe that's what's really bothering me; historically when I hit 80 with a character I have that sense of done it! And then I tail off playing them, well I have done with the three who are 80 and neglected. And I don't want that for her.
I also want to RP moar. But, heaven knows, I'm not brave enough to actually create a character then approach an RP guild *whimpers slightly* so I guess it's solo RP (does that even exist??) Which leaves me with a further question - Horde or Alliance? Now bear with me here, I've played both so I don't have 'faction pride' in any real sense. Added to this is the fact that I want the two classes I intend to play in Cata left fresh and new for me - so that rules out a druid and... something for my goblin. Possibly a hunter. There are only two classes I have yet to really try: rogues and warriors. Both melee *shudders*. Neither of which I know anything about. I would adore to get something going Alliance side, but that means I leave my SAN friends alone (intermittently, and someone else might get a word in on gchat so they may be grateful!!) and strike out knowing no-one... And y'know, I'm quite a sociable gal so this might just be depressing. Then again I could just do nothing and assume that the moon is in the wrong quarter or something... I don't know.